The first time I ever owned a scale was about 8 years ago….prior to that I never had one. Growing up in a house of all girls, my mom really knew what she was doing and she did it well. The word “fat” was never used in our home, we did not own a scale and I can honestly say I NEVER recall my mom saying anything negative about her own body, food choices or being on a diet. What I did witness from my own mother was that she was active daily, she always cooked homemade food, she balanced healthy foods with treats and she never said no to birthday cake. I am sure, in the quiet of her own space she had certain areas of her own body that she didn’t love, although she never let my sisters and I know that. At the time, I thought that was the norm for everyone. Yet, as I got older, I became more aware of body image in a negative way. I remember girls talking about being “fat” or going on a diet or needing to lose a few pounds beginning in my tween years. Luckily for me, the bathroom scale did not exist in my house.
Fast forward to my adult life. As I was pregnant with my oldest son, I had preeclampsia and began gaining weight quickly. That weight was discussed weekly during my checkups and those numbers on the scale became much more important than ever before. As my family grew, so did my ups and downs with my weight, as happens with most women during pregnancies that are close together. The difference was that now I actually owned a scale and the number became important to me.
Now that my youngest is 3, I feel healthier and better than I have prior to having children and have decided that it is time for my scale and I to take a break. When you reach a certain “goal weight” I think that it can become very easy to dwell on the number on the scale rather than how you actually feel. If the number fluctuates, yet you still are following a healthy lifestyle, it can easily create a negative mood that just is not necessary.
So, I have decided to put the scale away and focus on how I feel, how healthy I am, how strong I am becoming and how my clothes fit. I want to make sure that I can be the same positive role model to my children as my mother was and still is to me today.